why did I actually cried..??

Paddling my cycle to school,
was a fish of ocean trapped in a pool.
Returning, I had a lession in my mind,
when a girl in rags diverted my sight.
Recalling the Moral science decided to give her free education ,
on the sheldon's side, dreamt of prized appreciation.
as the newspapers would say 'young child's effort to educate nation'
the idea flew in and was awake whole night.
unlike all the days, i left bed early and paddeled to her house.,
the croud assembeled at the place gave a frown on my eyebrows...
Alas..!! she died few hrs ago, as a car hit her crossing the lane,
I saw the headlines fading in vain..
people thought I cried because she died ...really..??
Even I dont know what was my real pain..!!